When sleep won't come.......

Sleepless nites lost in what might have beens,
Too afraid to reach out and start over again.
Wondering what in the world happen to me,
Trying to be the person who other people see.
Staring off into space, what in the world will I do?
Never being myself, around those I want to.
Time spent writing, that is never a waste.
Wanting the life I had, or just a small taste.
Confusing words pour from my shattered mine.
Looking for reflections from another time.
I was happy once, am I really any less now?
Everything just seems weird having no one around,
Now I lay me down to sleep, pray for dreams instead of nightmares,
Telling no one, because while they are there, can I be sure they care…….



Okay so i have not written in a few years and i guess you could say i am very rusty. But this is the first draft of something that came to the top of my head.